Why do I feel lethargic? Listless...

Lethargic is a way of being where there is no energy to live, to move forward, and there is not even hope.

It feels like deflated, the life force that was there before disappeared.

Tiredness that doesn"t ease up with rest, a good night"s sleep, isn"t tiredness. It is probably lethargy, depression, or purposelessness.

Why meaning disappears... when the future to live for disappears.

I experienced lethargy after my first time winning a national competition for architects. I won enough money to buy my first car, and out of the blue I had no mojo, no desire to get up, and I even got ill.

When your actions are project oriented, outer directed, the result is always a let-down, a disappointment, because nothing outward will ever give you what you hoped for.

No happiness, no success, no fulfillment.

Nothing fails like success.

Why? Because, and try to imagine this, no matter where you are on the "mountain of success": the lower you are the more hope you have. It still seems that if you could get money, a nice house, a better job, a nicer partner, a prettier body, then you could be fulfilled. Because, after all, we are all looking for fulfillment.

But, if you had a chance to look at the people who have what you think will make you happy, you"ll see that they are the most wretched; they have lost hope too.

So, what is the solution?

Of course, you want to take care of your health... because as it is, it is the end of a harsh winter, where you didn"t get much air, didn"t get much sun, didn"t get much fresh produce, so it is natural for the body to go into survival mode. Vitamin D-3, Vitamin C, Vitamin A... Look out the window if you can"t go out...

Spring will be here soon, and if your lethargy is health related, it will lift soon enough.

Of course, if your cells are in survival mode, nothing will change.

Find out if that is the case... I"ll advise you how to take care of it. In fact, 99.99% of the people I have ever tested test that their cells are in survival...



But if your lethargy is spiritual - chances are 70% that your lethargy is spiritual, then start looking for meaningful goals, and start seeking for yourself.

Because in all this struggle to achieve something in the world, you have forgotten who you are, you have left yourself behind, and you are paying the price.

This is true for everyone, with every soul correction: your job is to find yourself. Start to look within, not outside.

NOTHING on the outside will every make you happy, fulfilled, peaceful, serene, and feel good about yourself for more than a few gleeful seconds.

Once you find yourself, and it takes a while, your activity on the outside isn"t coming from an outside goal, but from an inside goal.

I have an inner drive to do the work I do, to work 12 hours a day. I have no goals to achieve, and yet I am doing the work. Why? It is fulfilling.

The biggest question I get from people: if I am unmotivated because I have given up outside goals: how am I going to make a living?

Well, you may be starting to make a living in a more satisfying way... or bring peace, presence, awareness to your current occupation, and consider it a spiritual practice.

There are a few things I have in my life that I would not choose, but they are there, so I choose them. But I choose them as a fire to move through, a struggle through which I can grow.

Quite a different experience. Because, don"t forget, context is decisive.

The content may be still unpleasant, but now it serves a purpose, and that makes all the difference.

Consider your lethargy a divine warning that you are on the wrong path.

When I researched what people look for when they search for lethargy, I found that 99.899% of them were looking for solutions to lethargy in some pet, or children.

That tells me that you don"t even care about yourself, that all your focus is on other people, pets, the world.

No wonder you feel miserable, tired, listless, and lethargic.

Weeping looking back at the path -- republished

I wrote this article in 2015. I am republishing it... because it is important to read now... given the next article I just wrote... It will make it easier to get.

Here I am this cool Saturday morning, weeping.

I observe. What is there? Pain, definitely. Sense of loss, yes. Sadness, no. Regret, no. Resentment, no.

I have had a hard life. The hardest part is the last 30 years. Maybe 33... Since I left Hungary.

In Hungary I had friends. I had people who would want me around, who would walk with me, who would vouch for me.


All that was lost when I left. I have had no real friends since then. I miss the intimacy of friendship. I don"t mean companion, I don"t mean significant other, I don"t mean students, I don"t mean teachers... I mean friendship. Chosen. Close. Naked. Intimate. Shared Vision.

On your path, if you want to grow, you need to choose friction. And miss a lot of smooth, comfortable, nice...

Being your persona, your personality is what people like... and I had to leave that all behind if I wanted to be more than what my personality allowed for.

Osho:

There is one statement of Gautam Buddha which Buddhists try to avoid because they don"t have the understanding to explain it. And it is so clear, they cannot even explain it away. The statement that Buddha makes is, "unless you hate your father, your mother, your brother, you cannot follow me." Now, what kind of statement is this? - "Unless you hate your father, your mother, your family, you cannot follow me."

The Buddhists don"t quote it. In no Buddhist monastery does anybody even give a sermon on it. Monks just pass it by quickly. How to explain it? A man like Buddha who teaches love, non-violence, is saying to hate your mother and father.





Then Jesus certainly seems to be far superior: "Love your enemy; not only the enemy, love your neighbor" - which is certainly far more difficult. The enemy is far away and once in a while maybe there is some trouble, but the neighbor is a twenty-four hour trouble, and just a pain in the neck continually, twenty-four hours a day. And Jesus says, "Love your neighbor just like yourself."

Naturally if you compare these statements Jesus will look far more religious than Buddha. But before I say anything else, let me quote Bodhidharma, who defeated his own master, Buddha, in every possible way. And that is the only joy of a real master, that he should be defeated by his disciple. Of course, they were not contemporaries; there was at least eleven hundred years" difference between Buddha and Bodhidharma.

Bodhidharma says: "First go and kill your father and mother, then come to me. First, be finished with your father and your mother and then come to me. Otherwise go somewhere else - I am not for you." How you are going to explain it? And I say to you that what Jesus says is just hocus-pocus.

What Bodhidharma is saying is pure psychology. He is not saying that you should kill your father and mother, but in a certain way you have to kill the father that has entered you, and the mother that has entered you. That is your family inside, which is surrounding your being, which won"t allow any ray of light to reach your innermost corner. The crowd has gathered there, and because of that crowd the inner center is in darkness.

Bodhidharma brings Buddha"s statement to its logical conclusion. Why just hate? - be completely finished, because hating is again a relationship, just like love. If you love somebody, you remember him; you cannot forget him - you are not supposed to forget the person you love. Sometimes you may forget the person you love, but you cannot forget the person you hate. Although all the so-called moral teachers have been telling you to forgive and forget, you can neither forgive nor can you forget. Perhaps you can forgive, with effort, but how can you forget? Then you will remember two things: first, that you hated him and second, that you have forgiven him - now you will remember even more. So what have you done?

You cannot forget your enemy. It is a relationship, a very close, very intimate relationship. And that"s why it is very easy for lovers to become haters, friends to become enemies, enemies to become friends. It is very easy because both are relationships: just a little turn, a little change in the situation.

And I didn"t just have to leave everything that tied me to personality, I had to choose a path that is full of friction.

And friction I chose... and because I chose, I don"t complain, but from time to time I am present to the loss of ordinariness... which is comfortable like an old slipper... like your bed, like a cup of tea in cold weather.

A deep inner conflict is needed. You should not be lethargic, you should not relax unless the relaxation happens, and that is totally different. You have to fight and create conflict and friction. Friction is the right word for the inner war. Gurjieff worked through friction; he would create friction in the body. You may not be aware now but remember it: some day you will become aware that your body has many layers of energies. If you are not in friction then you use only the superficial layer. If much conflict arises, the superficial layer is finished and then the second layer starts functioning.

Try it this way: you always go to sleep at ten at night. At ten when suddenly you feel sleepiness coming over you, don’t go to sleep. Sufis have often used this method, and Jesus also used it: vigil. He would not sleep for the whole night; in the wilderness for forty days and forty nights he would not sleep. He remained in the hills alone without sleeping. What happens? If you don’t sleep at ten, for a few minutes you will feel very, very lethargic, sleepier and sleepier and sleepier. But if you resist and fight, a friction is created, you become two: the one who wants to sleep and the one who doesn’t want to sleep. Now there are two parts fighting. If you stick to it and don’t yield, suddenly you will find all sleepiness has gone and you have become as fresh as you have never been in the morning. Suddenly all sleepiness has gone, you are fresh, and even if you want to go to sleep it will be difficult now. What happened? There were only two possibilities, and through the friction between them energy was created.

Energy is always created through friction. All science depends on creating friction; then energy is created. All dynamos are just friction techniques to create a fight, a war between two things. You create a war: your body wants to go to sleep and you don’t want to go to sleep. Friction is there, and much energy is created.

If you yield it will be very bad, because if you yield, the body has won and the consciousness has lost a fight. So if you try, only try with a mind determined not to yield; otherwise it is better not to try.

Friction methods are dangerous: if you try then you have to win. If you don’t win you are lost, because then you lose your confidence. Your consciousness will become weaker and the body will become stronger. And if you lose many times, then there is less and less possibility of winning.

and another quote from Osho... It is a great thing to be able to make sense of your experience of life... Osho has been a great help to me.

Friedrich Nietzsche ... says, "Before you can reach heaven, you have to reach to hell. Unless you have fathomed hell completely, there is no way to heaven."

It looks very absurd. And he used to write in maxims; he never wrote essays explaining anything, that was not his way. Insights never come in essays, in theses; they never come for PhD, DLitt degrees. No. For a PhD degree you have to sit in a library and do a clerical job, just collecting from here and there. You can simply take a pair of scissors and if you can cut from this book and that book, this journal and that journal, and just go on collecting them in a file, sooner or later you will be a PhD. There is not much more to it.

Men like Nietzsche only write maxims. One day suddenly he will write a maxim, and then for months he will not write. This is the meaning of what he says. Now, Jesus cannot understand it. Jesus says, "If you want to avoid hell, come follow me, I will take you to heaven. That"s the only way to avoid hell." Nietzsche is saying, "If you avoid hell, heaven is already avoided, because heaven is a second step. You have missed the first step."

In another passage, a similar passage, Nietzsche says, "Before you can reach to the top of a tree and can understand the flowers blossoming there, you will have to go deep to the roots, because the secret lies there. And the deeper the roots go, the higher the tree goes." So the greater your longing for understanding, for cosmic consciousness - because that is the ultimate lotus, the lotus paradise - then the further you will have to go to the deepest roots in the darkest underground; and the way is only one.

Call it meditation, call it awareness, call it watchfulness - it all comes to the same: that you become more alert, first about your conscious mind, what goes on in your conscious mind. And it is a beautiful experience. It is really hilarious, a great panorama.

So, it"s OK to weep once in a while. It is healthy. It shows awareness. It shows that I don"t live unconsciously.

How Cancer Thinks Like A Human

If you want to understand cancer...

If you want to understand cancer watch yourself and people you know. You will understand more about the condition than through any other "information" source.

If you think you should only watch other people, it only means you are worse than others...

What is the similarity between cancer and humans?

Cancer is not part of an organization, it doesn"t even know about the organization. It knows only about itself. Cancer doesn"t care about the big picture. Cancer is driven exclusively by its mind, which tells him that he is to reproduce itself exactly the same way as its parents: all new members of the "family" need to be exactly the same, no individuality, no variations, not deviation. The new ones need to have faith, be Jewish, Christina, Hindu, Mohammedan, or whatever the "parents" were, no alterations.

The new cells are trained that it"s a competition out there, and their loyalties need to lie with the family, right or wrong, loyalties are your number one concern. The survival of the "family."

Your concerns are the most important, whether your concerns seem to be about yourself or about a disadvantaged group, or against some "evil wrongdoer", your concerns are the only important thing.

You may be a vegetarian and all others, carnivores, are despicable creatures, and they should surely die!

You preach one-ness only to cover up that you have only one way to live, in isolation and in disharmony with all of it. Your concern or fear overrides the interest of the whole: you"ll just make sure you live comfortably, who cares about all of it?

You have never looked how the whole organism works, what others "really" do, you are just pushing your own agenda: if everyone were like you, wanted what you want, life would be so great... NOT.

I probably could spend a lot more time looking for similarities or even same-ness. You either got it (I doubt it) or not, more won"t make any difference.

Humanity, as a whole, is at odds with everything that was and is there that is not a human creation, like mind. It all comes from blindness, inner and outer blindness.

The human that has a mind can only see what agrees with the mind, not reality. Reality would require of humans to look beyond the mind, with awareness, and be present, moment to moment. That human would learn life through their own experiences instead of being inculturated by others with a major agenda.

A great (or not so great) example to how far humans have gone from being present, from being aware, from bringing consciousness to their actions is the number of people that actually meditate the way meditation is meant to be: with full awareness, to meet themselves, to connect to all-of-it.

At present there are nine people on Planet Earth that actually meditate (out of millions!) when they think they are meditating. The rest of them have experiences that they have read about, or repeat meaningless mantras that hypnotize them into unawareness and stupidity, or go into a sleep-like trans, or try to not think, to mechanically watch the breath... the wrong way is followed by millions. There is only one way to become more aware, and only nine people are on that path.

The rest are pretenders.

What are they hiding? Why do they pretend? Or better said: why do we pretend?

Because other people"s opinion of us became more important to us than Life. It takes courage to return to Life, and maybe it"s not too late. The Avatar State audios increase courage, and peel away layers of not-you. It is not a smooth process, it is not painless. But it"s the fastest known to man, at present.

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Why you are not confident... Why you don"t trust yourself... Why you aren"t happy...

I watch, I observe people"s behavior and the emotions that go with it.

Unless I can see what you did, your emotions and much of your behavior don"t make sense.

And occasionally I get the opportunity to see both the actions and the emotions...

1. 
   

   The most frequent behavior is you acting without looking.

   
   Much like a drunk jumps into an empty pool... expecting it to be full.
   
   You buy something. You are on the payment page. You assume you know what"s there... you are not looking. You don"t even suspect that you are singing up to a monthly program as well... and that you need to "un-tick" that if you don"t want it.
   
   
   
   How do I know? Nine of you "accidentally" and unknowingly signed up to Tai"s premium monthly program.
   
   I remember a month ago when I bought my 67-steps... I carefully looked before I paid. Sometimes swimming pools are empty... and if you assume they are full... you hurt yourself.
   
   Another example when you buy something on my site and you don"t wait to be taken to your purchase. The text on the page, small letters, says: wait until we redirect you to your purchase.
   
   Result: I have to manually add you to the site so you can get your purchase.
   
   I do it, begrudgingly, because I"d like students and clients who are awake, aware, and conscious.
   
   Your results in life are very consistent with your level of awareness...


2. 
   

   The second most frequent behavior is lying.

   
   I know it"s a word you don"t want to hear. The word lying has two meanings: telling something that is not true, and to rest horizontally in bed, for example. In American English, people stopped using the word even for the second action: they say "lay" instead, which means "make lie"...
   
   Why do people lie?
   
   Because they can"t face the truth. Because courage is in the shortest supply... there is a courage deficiency.
   
   The second reason they lie, even to themselves, is that they don"t know that the payment for a lie is intense unhappiness.
   
   I am reading Freud"s essay, Civilizations and its discontents. It"s not an easy read... It"s Freud"s investigation into what makes humanity unhappy. What makes happiness impossible.
   
   Civilization wants to curtail humans" freedom to live by their instincts (sex, anger, hate, etc.) and makes it impossible for humans to live at peace with themselves.
   
   Humans, you, feel what you feel, have urges that you have, and then lie about it, even to yourself.
   
   Yesterday I had a conversation with someone whose soul correction is "Removing Hatred".
   
   He doesn"t seem angry, or full of hate, but at the same time he is not happy, he is further and further away from what he"d like to accomplish in his life.
   
   He cannot see, but until he makes peace with his own human urge to hate when he hates, he will never accomplish anything worth accomplishing in his life.
   
   And he will feel unhappy.
   
   I shared that I have flares of hate when I see you, my readers, my students, do the things you do: not be aware.
   
   Anger, hate, are like lightening... 2-3 seconds max... except when they are suppressed.
   

   When I was three years old, I remember lying awake in my bed, pondering why I wasn"t allowed to go to my baby sister"s funeral.
   
   She was going to be my knight in shining armor: the one that will love me in a world where nobody loved me.
   
   I decided that it is because I killer her. A three year old"s logic is hard to follow, but it is logic nevertheless.
   
   I never even visited her in the hospital during her 10 days struggle to live... she was a preemie like myself.
   
   But I KNEW that I killed her, I killed her with my anger. I KNEW...
   
   So, obviously, I started to suppress my anger from that point on. You suppress anything, you have to suppress everything.
   
   I don"t remember joy, I don"t remember happiness, I only remember anger and hate. They haunted me in my dreams.
   
   When I was 34 I read a book on how to release anger. That was after I had been hospitalized for depression three times...
   
   It took me another 20 years to clear the anger from my system, so when anger or hate comes, it is new... and not overwhelming.

   
   

   Suppressing a natural instinct makes you feel like you are sitting on a bomb... paralyzing.

   
   Expressing a natural instinct after it"s suppressed is dangerous: it may make you kill someone.
   
   The job is to gently and diligently release it from its prison... and to make the natural instinct, sexual, or aggression, ok to feel, ok to express, but redirect.
   
   I have redirected sexual energy most of my life, energy can be redirected... it"s like the energy of the river can be destructive, or it can create electricity... humans can do it.
   
   In the conversation, yesterday, when I spoke of my hate, my "Removing Hatred" friend tried to stop me and correct me: you didn"t hate them, you hated the behavior... he tried to dull the edge of my statement.
   
   Hell, I hate you for all of two seconds when you do something stupid. Can you be with that?
   
   People don"t hate behavior, they hate the perpetrator. Ask any dog... they attack you, even though it"s what you did they don"t like.
   
   If you won"t start cleaning up your act, and start allowing your aggression and your sex to be felt, you can"t even redirect it.
   
   You have to suppress it, lie about it, and be unhappy, as surely as that everybody has to die.
   
   Now, looking at the questions I ask in the title: who would trust a certified liar?
   
   My "Removing Hatred" friend is an underachiever, because he can"t trust himself, because he is a liar.
   
   Deliberate action is the hallmark of achievers. Your haste to close the page after paying, your haste to click the payment button, instead of checking if you are paying for what you think you are paying for, is a sign that you are a liar.
   

   I catch myself, once in a while, do the same.

   
   I don"t think I am stupid. I think I am a liar... and start looking what I am lying about. Where my integrity am out. I look until I find it. Sometimes it takes days... but I always find it, and then proceed to tell the truth about it.
   
   More often than not I promised to do something, and I am not doing it... currently the zenify my house project... I stopped being in action about it...
   
   Time to restart... Today is a good day for that.

Related post: https://www.yourvibration.com/16447/you-are-a-liar/

PS:

The nature of your suppression, the nature of your lies seems to be consistent with your soul correction.

You should get intimately familiar with your machine encoded in your soul correction.

Example: my soul correction is "Forget Thyself" and it is needing to be superior, thought of as superior and faultless.

Last week I bought something that today smelled funny. I muscle tested and although it would not make me sick... yet, muscle test says: don"t eat it.

I was looking to return it, but, I think, it was my fault: the thing was on sale, probably because it was expiring... I bought it nevertheless.

So I am just going to throw it away... it allows me to still look superior and faultless... Do you see the machine in action?

On the other hand, my friends who are "Speak your mind" soul correction (25) will buy stuff and return it a week later for a refund, even thought the thing was perishable and would not last a week... and it was obvious already in the store. They didn"t miss it... no, they like to think of themselves as people who take care of themselves... preferably at someone else"s expense.

What would your soul correction make you do in similar situation?

Awareness... When you are sick... be sick.

If you found out in which quadrant you chose to live in, beauty, truth, goodness or power... and now try to argue, or you are worried, or you are resigned... consider that you are just doing what you are doing: you want to be where you are not... or more precisely: you never what to be where you are, you never what to think what you are thinking, you never want to feel what you are feeling.

So you do what you are doing, think what you are thinking, feel what you are feeling only so-so... A student of mine coined the phrase: in the neighborhood of truth.

If you can"t physically stop doing what you are doing, etc. then you withdraw into the cave of your mind, and languish there.

It is a safe prison... more like a tomb. You don"t have to be with yourself.

Why don"t you want to be with yourself? Because when you look into yourself, you find evil inclination, you find ugly, and ultimately you find empty. Not empty as in nothing, but an abyss. You get scared and you run back to your periphery, where it is so busy, you don"t have time to even contemplate that there is nothing inside... that there is no you.

One of the big interruptions, potentially, are the times when you get sick.

When you are sick, your job is to be sick. And be sick. Allow the body to do the work, it is equipped, 90% of the time, to do the work with proper nutrition, proper hydration and no medication, not even herbal.



In some cases the body tells you not to eat, and it is wise to listen to the body.

Most people, when they are sick, they want to do the things they normally don"t want to do... just to avoid being with themselves, alone. Or watch TV and videos. Anything to not have to be present, aware, absolutely anything.

Even work.

That is probably the worst distraction, because when you are sick your brain isn"t working properly (if it ever does!) and you will regret doing most everything you did, while you were sick. I tested this... and I am about half as smart as I normally am since I got sick about a week ago.

As I said, after I finished The Fountainhead, I started to read again Osho... The Awareness book.

And did find something I find interesting enough, relevant enough to share it here.

To the degree that you identify with things on the horizontal plane, to that same degree you are miserable, and can"t be in the present moment.

Surprisingly, maybe, the number in the Starting Point Measurements, the "about you" score is the same as to what degree you identify with whatever anyone says, whatever you read, your religion, your nationality, your personal and racial history, etc.

You are not your feelings, not your thoughts, not your history, you are, if you have a Self already developed, a Self. A consciousness.

Before that you are seeking to fill that empty space that should be you, every opportunity you have.

It fills the space with "not you"... so it was a mistake.

Things inform you, but if and when they make you... you are not a person, sorry to say.

Same thing is happening with the quadrants of Beauty, Truth, Goodness and Power. You are identifying with it, or arguing with it.

Here is Osho

The East has a totally different outlook, first, it says no problem is serious. The moment you say no problem is serious, the problem is almost 99 percent dead. Your whole vision changes about it. The second thing the East says is that the problem is there because you are identified with it. It has nothing to do with the past, nothing to do with its history. You are identified with it — that is the real thing. And that is the key to solving all problems.

For example, you are an angry person. If you go to the psychoanalyst, he will say, "Go into the past … how did this anger arise? In what situations did it become more and more conditioned and imprinted on your mind? We will have to wash out all those imprints; we will have to wipe them off. We will have to clean your past completely."

If you go to an Eastern mystic, he will say, "You think that you are anger, you feel identified with the anger — that is where things are going wrong. Next time anger happens, you just be a watcher, you just be a witness. Don"t get identified with the anger. Don"t say, "I am anger." Don"t say, "I am angry" Just see it happening as if it is happening on a TV screen. Look at yourself as if you are looking at somebody else."



You are pure consciousness. When the cloud of anger comes around you, just watch it — and remain alert so that you don"t get identified. The whole thing is how not to become identified with the problem. Once you have learned it … then there is no question of having "so many problems" — because the key, the same key will open all the locks. It is so with anger, it is so with greed, it is so with sex. It is so with everything else that the mind is capable of.

The East says, just remain unidentified. Remember — that"s what George Gurdjieff means when he talks about "self-remembering." Remember that you are a witness, be mindful — that"s what Buddha says. Be alert that a cloud is passing by — maybe the cloud comes from the past, but that is meaningless. It must have a certain past, it cannot come just out of the blue. It must be coming from a certain sequence of events — but that is irrelevant. Why be bothered about it? Right now, this very moment, you can become detached from it. You can cut yourself away from it, the bridge can be broken right now — and it can be broken only in the now.

Going into the past won"t help. Thirty years before, the anger arose and you got identified with it that day. Now, you cannot get unidentified from that past — it is no longer there! But you can get unidentified this moment, this very moment — and then the whole series of angers of your past is no more part of you. You will not have to go back and undo whatsoever your parents and your society and the priest and the church have done — that will be a sheer waste of precious present time. In the first place it has destroyed many years; now, again, it will be destroying your present moments. You can simply drop out of it, just as a snake slips out of the old skin.



The past and its conditionings do exist — but they exist either in the body or in the brain; they don"t exist in your consciousness because the consciousness cannot be conditioned. Consciousness remains free — freedom is its innermost quality, freedom is its nature. You can look — so many years of repression, so many years of a certain education. In this moment when you are looking at it, this consciousness is no longer identified; otherwise, who will be aware? If you had really become repressed, then who would be aware? Then there would be no possibility of becoming aware.

If you can say "I spent twenty-one years in a crazy educational system," one thing is certain: you are not yet crazy. The system has failed; it didn"t work. You are not crazy, hence you can see the whole system as crazy. A madman cannot see that he is mad. Only a sane person can see that this is madness. To see madness as madness, sanity is needed. Those twenty-one years of crazy system have failed; all that repressive conditioning has failed. It cannot really succeed — it succeeds only in the proportion that you get identified with it. Any moment you can stand aloof… it is there, I am not saying it is not there: but it is no longer part of your consciousness.

This is the beauty of consciousness — consciousness can slip out of anything. There is no barrier to it, no boundary to it. Just a moment before you were an Englishman — understanding the nonsense of nationalism, a second later you are no longer an Englishman. I am not saying that your white skin will change; it will remain white — but you are no longer identified with the whiteness; you are no longer against the black. You see the stupidity of it. I am not saying that just by seeing that you are no longer an Englishman you will forget the English language, no. It will still be there in your memory, but your consciousness has slipped out, your consciousness is standing on a hill looking at the valley — now, the Englishman is dead in the valley and you are standing on the hills, far away, unattached, untouched.

The whole Eastern methodology can be reduced to one word: witnessing. And the whole Western methodology can be reduced to one thing: analyzing. Analyzing, you go round and round. Witnessing, you simply get out of the circle.

Analysis is a vicious circle. If you really go into analysis, you will simply be puzzled — how is it possible? If, for example, you try to go into the past, where will you end? Where exactly? If you go into the past, where did your sexuality start? When you were fourteen years of age? But then it came out of the blue? It must have been getting ready in the body, so when? When you were born? But then when you were in the mother"s womb, wasn"t it getting ready? Then when, the moment you were conceived? But before that, half of your sexuality was mature in your mother"s egg and half of the sexuality was maturing in your father"s sperm. Now go on … where will you end? You will have to go to Adam and Eve! And even then it does not end: you will have to go to Father God Himself — why in the first place did he create Adam? …

Analysis will always remain half, so analysis never helps anybody really. It cannot help. It makes you a little more adjusted to your reality, that"s all. It is a sort of adjustment, it helps you to attain a little bit of understanding about your problems, their genesis, how they have arisen. And that little intellectual understanding helps you to adjust to the society better, but you remain the same person. There is no transformation through it, there is no radical change through it.

Witnessing is a revolution. It is a radical change from the very roots. It brings a totally new human being into existence, because it takes your consciousness out of all the conditionings. Conditionings are there in the body and in the mind, but consciousness remains unconditioned. It is pure, always pure. It is virgin; its virginity cannot be violated.

The Eastern approach is to make you mindful of this virgin consciousness, of this purity, of this innocence. The Eastern emphasis is on the sky, and the Western emphasis is on the clouds. Clouds have a genesis; if you find out from where they come, you will have to go to the ocean, then to the sun rays and the evaporation of the water, and the clouds forming … and you can go on, but it will be moving in a circle. The clouds form, then again they come, fall in love with the trees, start pouring again into the earth, become rivers, go to the ocean, start evaporating, rising again on sun rays, become clouds, again fall on the earth … It goes on and on, round and round and round. It is a wheel. From where will you come out? One thing will lead to another and you will be in the wheel.

See how different his approach is from the Western fix-it, self-reflection, endless "me-me-me".

While you and most everyone refuse to do the work of witnessing, and being in the preset, the process of living.

Obviously I am still sick. So this article is a little disjointed. I apologize for that.

I was going to be well by today, but then I ate... fish, nothing heavy, but it set me back several days. So I am still sick.

A great little exercise to cause self-love... Unconditional Love

Last night, in bed, I accidentally hugged myself.

Then, unexpectedly, I said to myself: I love you, little one. And then the "fun" began... The emotional dings, the doubt, the questioning, the grief.

Hoho... I said, what"s going on?

The little voice said: why would you love me?

Because I do... I said.

Do you love me, even though the house looks like a mess?

I don"t love your house, I love you. house, no house, mess, no mess... I love you.

oh. But do you love me even though I am getting old?


Oh, I do. And I want you to live long.

Sobbing... I didn"t know that the little self thought no one cared whether she lives or dies.... Some minutes pass. Hm. Very interesting.

And then, again...

And do you love me even though I have a missing tooth? That my legs hurt? That I am harsh? That I don"t have a lot of money?

It ended up with me, still hugging, falling asleep.

But I saw something, that I thought you"d also benefit from.

It was a big big surprise that the little self didn"t think anyone cared if she lived or died. That explains a lot of self-neglect, that until now made no sense. And it was always there, operating, sabotaging, working counter to what I was working for.

Then I woke up, and found my horoscope,

VIRGO (Aug. 23-Sept. 22): "I do not trust people who don"t love themselves and yet tell me, "I love you,"" said author Maya Angelou. She concludes: "There is an African saying: Be careful when a naked person offers you a shirt." With this in mind, I invite you to take inventory of the allies and relatives whose relationships are most important to you. How well do they love themselves?

Is there anything you could do to help them upgrade their love for themselves? If their self-love is lacking, what might you do to protect yourself from that problem?

Confirmation. I need to ask you to do this exercise.



Hug yourself. As intimately as possible. Hug yourself the way children hug themselves, close you the neck, close to the face. Bend your face into your arms, and have this same conversation.

The goal is to hear what the little one is considering a good enough reason not to be loved.

Then either put it in the comments section, or send me in email.

An unexamined life is not worth living... and until you see the small and the big you"s relationship is hampered by what the small you considers wrong, you"ll never be able to be one... you"ll always be schizophrenic, split, and full of anxiety.

Guaranteed.

Now go. Do it. Do it many times, if the communication is hampered between your selves.

If you have a hard time standing in the Big You, then consider that I am hugging you, and I say: "I love you".

See what it brings up. OK?

Good luck, have fun. Don"t be afraid to cry. Boys too...

PS: one more thing: if you have been taking the Unconditional Love Remedy, and you are not present to the grief between your two selves... you need to get present to it. It"s there. Weeping, sobbing... inside. You haven"t been attending to the most important person: you. This exercise will open up the communication, and also brings awareness to the big issue there. Don"t miss it.

An exercise to begin to raise your awareness so you can start on the path to the good life

Awareness is the number one predictor of how your life will turn out. High awareness: a much better life.

In essence, awareness is a number that shows how much of your time you spend outside of the mind... how much of reality can get through to you.

I just had an insight.

Most people can"t see anything that they didn"t already see. Nothing new can penetrate their awareness... No changes even, nothing... One way mirror. And you are on the mirror side. I can see you making faces at your reflection, picking your nose, etc. What i don"t see you is seeing what is on the other side of the mirror. And when I say, hearing works the same way.

Seeing what you have always seen, hearing what you have always heard is not useful.

Most people are on this site because they want to raise their vibration. And raising your vibration means seeing what you haven"t seen before, bringing conscious awareness to all areas of life.

Some people have a real difficulty with that.

I have many programs. Maybe too many.

In every program I run into the same difficulty, the same issue: you hear very little of what is being said. You read very little of what you read.

So what do you hear? You hear what you have already heard. And it drowns out what is being said.

I ask you to hear the voices. You come back and tell me you heard two... in a week. Out of the hundreds a day. What happened to the others? You heard them as your own thinking. You didn"t hear me saying that every single thing that you hear in your head is the voices and the memes... The memes are voices, but they have a different flavor: they sound like wisdom.

My flagship product is the 67 step coaching.

It has 67 audios. You are asked to listen to them. You are asked to allow them to lead you to look at things you don"t normally look at. To do it so you can increase your awareness.

Because your awareness is 100% correlated with your potential for success...

And you have low awareness. Very low.

In the 67-step coaching, the more you allow yourself to see, the more useful it is.

But, of course, you didn"t hear what I said... So you have all kinds of excuses why you can"t do it, why you are not the right person for the program.

It looks, sometimes, as laziness. But it is always lack of awareness... like in the case of this student:

I looked at a couple of other people"s threads and I became terrified. My issue isn"t with looking and doing; it"s with sharing. The others have a lot to talk about, but I am not sure if I have much to share. Your comment reminds me of another friend who said I was just sitting around waiting to be a grandma. Yuck! I will look harder and do better with sharing and trusting the process.

I needed to put myself in the shoes of this student to suggest a way out of this poverty of seeing...

this is what I wrote back:

it"s a matter of practice. and it is also a matter of coming from your strengths.

You wanted to be a movie maker? look as if you were looking with the camera... not kidding.

I used to be a photographer, for many years. I saw little worth taking pictures of, worth talking about, without the camera in front of my eyes.

the difference was, I think, is that the camera had a defined size of view... a frame, and it was easier to deal with that little, than with the whole.

As soon as I finished my answer, I realized that this is a technique worth teaching, worth exploring.

So, how do you do it?

If you have a camera, do it with the camera. Make sure you look through the camera. Change the setting so you have to see through the little hole, instead of looking at the little screen.

Old style cameras that work with film are best...

Start looking around you, and train your eyes to see things that are not visible when you just walk around, doing what you always do.

In the spiritual work, we are mostly interested in behavior, feelings, attitudes, but you cannot get to them, without first developing and training your eyes to see.

You are blind to everything other than what you know is there.

So look... keep on looking.

I expect you to be amazed, horrified (that"s me), or amused.

Please report back on what you saw.

This is necessary if you ever want to raise your awareness... which is how you raise your vibration.

PS: if you do this like a homework, it won"t do you any good.

This is a spiritual practice, that unless you do it with intention, and getting better at it every day, at least 1% better than the day before, you won"t get better.

I am not saying that you can get 1% better every day, but you can do whatever you need to do to get better, can"t you?

Here is a surprising number:

if you could get 1% better every day than the day before, you"ll get 380 times better by the end of the year.

Staggering number!

The average awareness of humanity is 5%. The average awareness of my readers is 5%...

You need to get it up to 80-90% to bring your dream into the realm of possibility...

That is a 16-18 times increase...

Ugh, that sounds difficult.

But like with everything else, consistency, diligence, intentionality in your practice will bring dividends.

You see, you can either be right or you can be rich, you can either be right or you can be happy.

What "right" means is listening to the same old, and allowing nothing new to enter.

When you are right, you are unaware.

Anyone aware more than 20% will know that "maybe" they know. Maybe. Keep looking.

I have too many examples of people who are right and do stupid things. Again and again and again... to their own detriment.

You can climb out of this pit of hell... with the above exercise.

PS: the picture on the top of this article is from my famous "locate your feet" exercise. Want to know more about it? Ask me on Wednesday on my Talk to me webinar.